week 2 of writing

2572 words.

47,428 more to go.

This is a lot harder than I thought.

black cloud

I’m in a foul mood today.  No thanks to the stress from my & J’s family situation with the engagement ordeal.  A lengthy phone call with my mom earlier this afternoon (possibly mixed with a heavy dose of caffeine this morning) only fueled my grudge against the world.

Today’s entry is devoted entirely to things that piss me off.

- adults who act childish, knowingly or unknowingly.

- people who cough/sneeze without covering their mouths.  It’s flu season, cover it!

- men who disgustingly stare.  Anyone ever tell them it’s NOT attractive?

- when a person chooses a bathroom stall RIGHT next to mine, when there are countless of others to choose from.  Hello, personal space?

- indecisiveness and fickleness.  ESPECIALLY when it’s at the expense of my time and energy.  No, I will NOT humor you or be a “good sport.”

- solicitors at my door.  NO, I do NOT want the Mercury News.  *slam.

- people who ask “how are you?” but don’t really care to listen.  Don’t ask and I won’t waste my breath!  Thanks.

- being tricked into feeling guilty for something that’s not my fault.  Parents are really good at this.

- doing something for the sake of doing it, or “tradition” or “that’s just the way it is” without real knowledge or explanation of purpose.  That drives me CRAZY.

-caring/worrying over things that I don’t have control over nor should spend time on.. but I still do anyway.

 

Bah humbug.

 

french press & novel writing

This Sunday morning was filled with determination.  I woke up and decided on two things – 1) to break in my new Chambord French Press coffee maker and 2) to write a novel.

The latest addition to my kitchen, thanks to the World Market.  The box states that it is “probably the best way to brew coffee.”

Coarse ground coffee from Trader Joe’s.  It was fun learning how to use the grinder machine at the store.  Another FF (fabulous frugal) tip: spend $5 on a can instead of $3 for a cup!

Pour hot water in and let steep with the coffee grinds for 4 minutes.  Press, pour, and inhale deeply.

Enjoy in a colorful mug.  A writer’s warm and tasty companion.

2) The Novel

Coffee mug in hand, laptop switched on, and a good hour of stalling, I finally work up the nerve to sign up for a NanoWrimo account.  With November 1st as the starting point of National Novel Writing Month, participants from all over the world are challenged to write 50,000 words (175 pages) in 30 days.  30 days of high pressure, crappy, and spontaneous writing.  Why am I willingly putting myself through such a painful literary experience?

- I think of stories ideas that never quite make it to paper or print.

- Knowing how I tend to start things and leave it hanging.  I will be forced to start and finish.

- The focus is on quantity, not quality of writing.

- It’ll be another wonderful to-do crossed off my list

- It sounds so ridiculous and crazy, that… why shouldn’t I?

The count so far: 743 words.  30 days left to go.

one step at a time

Finishing Medal

Months of training on the track, surprising myself by actually feeling the urge to run, and staying consistent with my pace finally led to completing last week’s San Jose Rock and Roll Half Marathon.

13.1 miles in 2 hours and 42 minutes!  This coming from a person who was NOT A RUNNER until 2009, who struggled through her first 5k just seven months ago, and who never thought she could push herself this far physically & mentally.  I was proud of myself – not just for the race, but for the months it took to get me prepared to even do it.

And here’s what I learned from my newfound “runner’s status” – it really is all in the mind.  Though it does take some level of physical endurance and fitness to run, I believe 90% of it came from sheer determination and discipline.  Unlike most of my other challenges, I wasn’t trying to deal with another person or circumstance.

With running, I was battling myself.  Do I stop at mile 10 because I’m truly tired or because my brain is telling me I’m tired?  Do my feet really hurt, or am I imagining it so I can stop?  And am I going to give into any excuse my mind can wrack up?  Deep down, do I want to stop because I can’t handle it or do I want to keep going because I HAVE to?  Those were the questions that I faced EVERY TIME I ran.  Even on the marathon day itself.

It’s scary, but enlightening, to realize how much influence your mind has over your body. I’m starting to believe that this sort of thinking – positive thinking according to The Secret – may be the next crucial area to train myself in.  Who knows what more I’d be able to accomplish if I can overcome my internal critic and skeptic?

“Now if you are going to win any battle you have to do one thing. You have to make the mind run the body. Never let the body tell the mind what to do. The body will always give up. It is always tired in the morning, noon, and night. But the body is never tired if the mind is not tired.”

- George S. Patton, U.S. Army General, 1912 Olympian

schooled by Martha

Lesson 1: Choose your kitchen companion wisely.

This is a classic case of life imitating art.  Or to be more accurate, life that imitates art imitating life.

After watching Julie and Julia, the film based on the stories of writer/aspiring home chef Julie Powell and the famous Julia Child, I felt invigorated.  Eager to write, blog, cook, and eat all at the same time!  Just as Julie Powell was inspired to go through Julia Child’s entire cookbook, Mastering the Art of French Cooking, the film inspired me to also be ambitious in the kitchen.  A week later, one purposeful trip to Border’s with a friend led me to purchase Martha Stewart’s Cooking School: Lessons and Recipes for the Home Cook.

Browsing through all of the glossy covers of grinning Food Network stars, unknowns, and cheesy titles (e.g. The Cooking Bible), I found there are two types of cookbooks: 1) Ones with only recipes, 2) Ones with recipes and cooking techniques.  There are far more “recipe” cookbooks than there are “comprehensive and technique” cookbooks.  Most already assume that you know the basics, something that I did not have. Others, like Julia Child’s and the popular  Joy of Cooking, seemed intimidating and looked like encyclopedias – not too appetizing.  However, like Goldilocks who found Baby Bear’s porridge to be just right, I discovered that Martha’s book had everything I was looking for: a credible author (alright, so the lady embezzled.  That doesn’t discount her culinary and creative talents!), diagrams and descriptions of basic things like herbs, cookware, and cuts of meat, how-to lessons (I never truly learned the proper way to chop onions, to “sweat” them, or even how to blanch vegetables!), delicious recipes, and all complemented by gorgeous step-by-step photos.

I thumbed through the Basics chapter, and then worked my way into the first culinary challenge:

Chapter 1.8.  How to make vegetable pureed soup

My vegetable of choice – the lovely butternut squash.  Slightly sweet, creamy, and a beautiful orange color.

Split the butternut, scoop out the seeds, salt and pepper, and roast in a 375 degree oven for 40 minutes.  These things are not only hard to cut, but I felt clumsy trying to de-skin it after I took it out of the oven.  It didn’t peel off as easily as I had hoped and I lost precious chunks at the hand of my knife.  *sigh

The “proper way” to chop an onion is NOT EASY.  This is my unimpressive attempt.  Note the irregular dice.

Letting the onions, garlic, and pear “sweat” in butter and medium heat.  I learned that the purpose of this is to extract the flavor, in addition to cooking it.  I later added the chunks of roasted butternut and chicken broth to simmer.

A few minutes in the blender and a beautiful orange colored puree emerged.  In less than an hour, J and I enjoyed our freshly made butternut soup as a healthy appetizer.  It tasted way better and heartier than the kind I buy at Trader Joe’s.  Why buy canned when you can make your own?  Excuse the “velociraptor” style arrangement of the pear slices.  I still have some presentation skills to learn. There is, in classic Martha Stewart style, a garnish chapter somewhere in her book.

My goal is to be able to get through at least 1-2 “lessons” a week, eventually gleaning and utilizing all of the techniques she covers.  And just like Julie Powell, I plan on capturing this personal project via my blog.  Please feel free to post any tips or words of encouragement as I fumble my way through the culinary world.  Cooking School is in session!

fabulous and frugal

My current MO and lifestyle – living fabulously frugal.

One would think that the two are contrasting ideals.  Living a fabulous life connotates living lavishly and indulgently, or in my case, impulsively and passionately without much concern for the aftermath.  An expensive month in Paris after grad school? Sure!  Move to San Francisco on a random month in the year? Why not?  Take a journalism class amidst writing my Master’s thesis? I’ll make it work.  Audition for a lead role in a short film?* Let’s do it!

My main point being – all the time and energy to pursue anything and everything was in my reach.  Whatever I fancied to have or do, I found a way to make it happen.  Aside from student loans and holding down a job, I had no true obligations to anyone but myself.  I was free to spend money and time on anything I desired, so long as I had sufficient funds.  I had adapted to a lifestyle that splurged on delicious dining, getaway trips, and new adventures.

So what changed?  Apparently, being engaged and a homeowner quadruples your level of responsibilities.  Not only that, but it also takes a demanding toll on your energy and financial income.  We were in love and with a very tight budget.  I nearly cried when J and I sat down to work out our monthly expenses for September – the first month of the dreaded mortgage and incoming house bills.

“But there’s no way I can go eat in the City or get together with the girls for drinks with this much for the month!” I wailed at J after I saw my remaining balance.  After accounting for bills, house expenses, groceries, gas, loans, and lunch money, I was well in the negative. J squeezed my shoulder and calmly said that I just need to be okay with cutting down on my indulgent spending.

“Babe, you need to have a plan.  You want to do all of these things, but how are you going to pay for it?” he said matter-of-factly.  I wanted to pinch him.  HARD.

I whined and sighed and cried for about the next two weeks.  Visions of our December trip to Florida’s Key West, dining out every so often in San Francisco, and buying myself a fancy new camera lens swirled down a drainhole in my head.  I was heartbroken. My old lifestyle was gone and I needed a way to move on.

And so here I am today.  Figuring out some way to still maintain some semblance of a fabulous life, but doing so frugally – in a financially conscious manner.  Things like coupons, discount stores, and promotional deals are starting to become part of my daily jargon.  Some other lifestyle changes:

* I purchased a VTA lightrail pass to commute to work.  More walking and public transit will mean less on gas & parking.

* Home cooked meals.  More practice for me in the kitchen and less on eating out.  I calculated that about $40 on groceries bought me – at least 6 meals and breakfast for 2 weeks.  If a meal is about $10 each and breakfast can easily be $5, that equals $130 worth of food for my $40 spent.  I may not be Giada in the kitchen, but J has been pleased with his dinners so far.

* Utilizing our Costco, AAA, and my education discount.  Bank of America also has a cool “Add it Up” program; cash back on online purchases.

* Of course, a wallet crammed full of coupons.  I keep the ones I’ll likely use (Safeway, Sweet Tomatoes, Target, Bed Bath Beyond etc) and have no shame in busting it out at the register.

For our recent trip to Las Vegas, J and I allocated about $50/day for food.  That sounded pretty crazy to me for a Vegas trip, but somehow we pulled it off.  Plus, it didn’t hurt that his friend’s parents comp’ed us dinner at the Rio buffet and that we stayed in downtown Las Vegas instead of the strip.  I was so happy that we saved up until the end of our trip that J allowed me to splurge the rest of it (including some of my own money) on a fancy schmancy brunch at Bouchon Bistro at The Venetian.

Brunch = $90.  Oh well, it’s still a work in progress.

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*Yes, this did happen during my brief stay in LA.  I just recently discovered that I am listed in IMDB http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1455231/.  I did not get the lead, but was cast as a lowly hostess.  Did it matter to me?  Not really; the fun was in the fact that I had the guts to go try out for a part.  Check one off my life’s to-do list.  The film trailer and website can be found at: http://www.luckylotusfilm.com/.

26

Turning another year older has only fueled my need to continue exploring, challenging myself, seeking creative outlets, and devouring good food.  I see each year as another opportunity to outdo the previous year.  My 20s, thus far, haven’t let me down.  My co-workers and I at work have decided that the older you get, you don’t just celebrate “birthdays” anymore.  Whereas, they become “birthmonths” – an extended period of celebration, indulgence, and late nights.  I want to take that idea and turn it into an entire year of good times!  In addition to the “Triple Whammy” party, a countless number of birthday lunches & dinners, here are some other ways I welcomed my 26th year.

*a morning run on my birthday – my first 5 miles!

*photo taken from Google images

*A day of photography in the City

Another SF day

North Beach, SF - one of my favorite SF dining neighborhoods

SF landmark

*A food festival day

Eat Real festival, Oakland

Creative popsicles, Eat Real

Sexy Soup Cart, tomato carrot miso - Eat Real

Jim 'N Nick's BBQ cart, Eat Real

Best $4 spent at Eat Real, Jim 'N Nick's spicy hot link with BBQ & pimiento cheese dip

* A day of wishful thinking

test drive fantasy - check.

*An evening of music under the stars

John Legend at the Greek Theatre, Berkeley

And this is just the beginning.  Cheers to another year of the exciting unknown.

triple milestones

Today J and I celebrate the most momentous milestones, thus far in our lives.

Our engagement, our first home together,  and our upcoming birthdays.

That’s all heavy stuff; I’m still trying to wrap my mind around all three at once.  In just two short, yet eventful, months, both of our lives changed dramatically.

The concept of “milestones” intrigues me.  Socially constructed, it’s like a way to mark time.  You don’t really know how much has changed or how long it’s been until you look back on a certain period in your life – be it comparing your freshmen year of high school to college, the friends and lovers who have gone into your life and out, or the first time you left the country and had a new perspective of the life you lived.  If it weren’t for milestones, how else can you distinguish elusive days from others?

Milestones reaffirm the purpose of my “everydays.”  And that I worked hard to achieve some of them.  A milestone like an engagement actually happens in one day, one heart-pounding moment.  But that was over 5 years in the making for J and I to reach that moment.  It symbolized years of love, working through a long-distance relationship, surviving grad school, learning to compromise and listen, and continuing to challenge and learn from each other.  It was a moment that I relished, be it socially constructed.  And the exciting part is that it one of the first major ones that we shared – the first of many.

What better way to celebrate an end of a marathon than with a nice, shiny medal?  Or to commence a brand new journey ahead.

projects & loose ends

Status Update:  Officially moved in!  Still engaged.  Just got cable and internet.  Starting to feel like home…

Mood: Exhausted, but excited.  Starting a new life while still trying to reconcile with your old one is not an easy task.

New Project Line- Up: Now that furlough days are hitting the CSU system (furloughs = a funny sounding and looking word = forced unpaid days off), I’ll have some extra time on my hands to devote to other activities.  In no particular order:

1) I want to start doing a better job of documenting the engagement/wedding process; perhaps even submit some queries for freelance articles again.

2) I took a bookbinding class recently at Paper Source with a friend and was surprised at how simple it was to create a book!  Definitely a hobby worth continuing. No need to ever buy my own journals or albums again!

3) Photoshop. Photoshop.  Photoshop.

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Because I promised myself I’d finish it, here’s a rough outline of the last bit of our Hawai’i trip.  I’m terrible at post-photo blogging and have decided to bring along a notebook on future travels to record details.

Hawai’i Day 3 & 4 Mash-Up:

North Shore and Waikiki

Hale'iwa Joe's

Matsumoto's Famous Shave Ice

Driving through Pineapple County, Hwy 99

Hotel Balcony View

Diamond Head

Flying back home engaged…  happy and also contemplative about the thought of coming back to “reality.”

Day 2

It’s been hard playing catch-up this past month!  I can’t believe it’s already nearing the end of July!  If June was the month of “Engagement”, then July is the month of “Home Preparation.”  This includes the last few weeks of painting, re-painting (apparently, colors on tiny swatches aren’t what you expect on a full out wall), and furniture arrival!  J and I joke that we’ve been working so hard to “prepare” for the house, we wonder when it will ever really feel like it’s ours?  Maybe when we actually MOVE IN.  Thus, phase two of July: PACKING.  Ugh.

Enjoy Day 2 of Hawai’i, which sadly feels like a distant memory already.

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Day 2. June 26, 2009 (Friday)

Southeast & Windward Oahu

Spam & Banana Pancakes

* Eggs N Things – Woke up and had THIS for brunch.  Now I get what Jack Johnson dedicates a whole song to… He forgot to mention the coconut syrup.  Yummm.

Haunauma Bay Natural Preserve aka Snorkeling Capital

* Haunauma Bay – Just BEAUTIFUL.  It took me awhile to get used to swimming with snorkeling gear.  The sound of me breathing just conjured up images of Darth Vadar – underwater.  But it was tres romantic swimming underwater with J beside me.  We even came up with an impromptu “sign language” for: ” Look!  A fish!” or “Watch out for the coral!” or “Alright, suffocating now.  Must have air.”

*Buzz’s Diner – Grub after snorkeling.

*Lanikai Beach – aka. The Millionaire’s Backyard.  Check this place out before the 3 feet of sand disappear.

* Fireworks at Waikiki – J was a bit grumpy that I made him stay out to watch the fireworks show, especially after a long day of snorkeling and driving.  But we were all smiles once we saw the spectacular display.  Disneyland definitely has some competition.

* E’lua – means “two” in Hawaiian.  Had dinner here since the restaurant prior had closed (argh.  Outdated Lonely Planet guide).  Live jazz with an all Asian & Pacific Islander band!  Only in Hawai’i…

Mai Tai

* Almost Mai Tai Bar – after a 15 minute search at the Ala Moana Center to find the Mai Tai Bar, we discover a crammed open air bar, loud live band, and a stubborn line.  We opt for Islands and sit out on their patio area to enjoy the Mai Tai’s music from a close distance.